A few weeks ago I was at work and someone asked me, "Why are you ALWAYS so HAPPY? Why do you always have a smile on your face? Do you ever have a bad day? What do I need to do to be happy like you?" ... I have thought about this a lot lately and I have come to the conclusion that I am happy because I choose to be happy. I am really just an average 25 year old girl.
I will be the first to tell you that I am not perfect and I do not have a perfect life. I do have bad days and I cry at least three times a week. Just as every person on this earth, I have trials. In fact, I am in the middle of a trial that has been pulling at my heart for over 3 years now. I hate waking up every morning, I wish I could sleep all day long. I hate doing my hair, I wish I could wear it in a bun on top of my head every single day. I hate getting my blood drawn on a daily basis on my way to work. I hate cooking dinner, I am a horrible cook. I hate working out, I wish I was naturally skinny. I hate veggies, I seriously wish I could eat Oreos and milk all day long. I hate cleaning the house, I wish I could snap my fingers and everything would be in order. I hate being fancy, I wish I could wear a t-shirt and shorts all day. I hate giving myself shots every single night. I hate not having a baby and not being able to experience motherhood yet and I really hate how I get tired at 8pm every night like a grandma!
I feel like I could be so grumpy with all of those things that I really don't like in life - but how horrible life would be! In answer to my co-workers question, I am happy because I am blessed. I am happy because I have a husband who is my best friend. I am happy because I have a family and an in-law family that make me a better person. I am happy because I have friends who support me and I feel of their prayers. I am happy because I have a cute little house that is small, but perfect for Tyson and I! I am happy because Tyson and I both have been blessed with amazing jobs that we love and enjoy. I am happy because we have the financial means to be going on year 4 on Fertility Treatments! I am happy because I have the gospel in my life and know that the church is true. I am happy because I can pray and I know that my Heavenly Father not only hears, but answers my prayers! I am happy because I love my new camera and I love taking pictures even though I am not that good yet. I am happy because of Facebook and I love stalking people! I am happy because it is Summer and I am obsessed with the heat. I am happy because I love when I hear that song on the radio, that I can blast and just sing with all of heart. I am happy because I have the most comfortable bed. I am happy because I love my Doctor! I am happy because life is just too short to be grumpy!
I love that my friend asked me that question. I thought it was funny that he sincerely thought that I never got angry or sad. He really thought that I never had a bad day. Seriously - we ALL have bad days. We are human and things make us angry and upset. I know that a lot of times through our trials it is REALLY hard to stay positive and not be upset. A few weeks ago when I got bad news from the doctor, I called my mom and said "Please tell me it is okay to cry!!" And she said "YES! It is okay to cry!" It is super important for us to get things off our chest and to feel sorry for ourselves every once in a while. It is healthy really.
Thank Heavenly Father for our trials! For our trials truly make us stronger! In fact, without having those things that get us down or drive us crazy, we really wouldn't be able to experience the true joy and happiness in life because we wouldn't know the difference!
"LIFE IS TO BE ENJOYED, NOT ENDURED"- Gordon B. Hinckley